whatever is lovely

with bits and pieces snagged from my application/personal statement i want to explain why UT Dallas.  why speech language pathology. and what it is, after all.  no, my life work is not limited to playing bingo with 7 year olds who can't say their "s" sound  it can look like a lot of things... speech, yes. but also any issues which take place within the anatomic structures i have been, and will continue to study... anything in the "language center" of the brain, and from the nasal cavity on down to the lungs. swallowing disorders. feeding therapy. voice disorders. stuttering. cluttering. stroke rehabilitation. traumatic brain injury. developmental, behavioral, or cognitive issues. cleft lip and palate. hearing impairments. literacy weakness. so much more. and lisps.  i originally just wanted to work with the kiddos. i had no interest in making a career for myself or touching the medical issues. but this has become so much more than a major or a ...

the phrase "it feels like I'm on a rollercoaster of emotions" is often used.  the thought fluttered through my head the other day, but i didn't let it pass by. i reached out and held tight and realized how true it really was.  my senior year up until this point has only been that first, big hill.  my neck is strained as i feel the gears click under me, chugging up that hill.   register for, study for, and take the GRE... click research graduate programs, consider the advice of professors, friends, and family... click seek recommendation letters... click apply to graduate schools... click ...pause... is this thing working?! receive acceptances... click analyze offers and potential experiences... click i'm on this ride, and that's not going to change. i'm almost up this hill. i can look behind me, but it's a steep view. i can't even let myself go there. i can see the sky above me and wonder what's next...